Thursday, January 31, 2008

Bipolar....not what you see on the news

OK so here I am watching the news and what comes on Britney Spears, in the hospital again, family members state she is bipolar. UGH! I hate this. Anytime you mention the term Bipolar what comes to mind, over the top pop stars, murderers who won't get divorced so they "get rid of" their spouses. Why don't you here about the people who are successful. This link gives you some idea Famous People with bipolar disorder.

Just because someone suffers from this disorder DOES NOT mean you can't live a very successful life. Many people with this disorder are highly motivated and driven people. Why don't they (the media) report the successes, no they have to report on the extreme because as a society that's what makes everyone stop and pay attention. The more outrageous, dramatic, traumatic, or just ridicules that's what our society wants to hear.

So I am ranting..but the point is valid, aren't their more important issues in this world at the moment. Now having said that, it does not mean that I do not sympathize with the Britney or any other person suffering with any form of mental illness. I just pray she will get the help she needs (and the media will just leave her alone to recover and get her life together.)

It's February Tomorrow...can you believe that..

Well so many things have happened since my last posting. Where do I start?

Well we found a house in Fuquay-Varina, NC, my mom broke her ankle and had surgery, my grandma went into a nursing home, my cousin passed away, Peter hit a deer and a rock from and overpass shattered my sunroof on my car, but I know everything happens for a reason. I tell the kids all the time "life's not fair, but God knows best."
So that's the condensed version. WHEW!

I am taking online classes through University of Dayton, and I love it! Online classes are the best. What am I going to school for? Theology. Why didn't I do this sooner. I thought business was the way to go, then I thought of Social Work, then I went back to my Faith. If you are passionate about something that is what you should do. All those other things, I was forcing a square peg in a round hole. School is fun now.

I got Murphy a stuffed Gorilla that screams. Why?, you ask. Well I thought it would be a great idea for him to have a new play toy. It was either that or a CAT. He loves the toy and he scared me to death with it. I was taking a nap and he went and picked it up and the thing started screaming. I almost had a heart attack. (now if my mom is reading this, she is laughing and saying "payback") Now why would my mom say that? hmmm here's the story.

When I was 5 years old or so, my cousin Scotty gave me a stuffed Gorilla. I loved it. Carried it around with me everywhere. Well I would also hide it in the cabinets, the drawers, closets, any place that was a little dark when you reached into them. My mom and my grandma would reach in these places and feel something furry. It would scare them to death. They screamed so many times. And did I remember these things when I bought the toy for Murphy...NO! so I guess payback is just fair.

I just read this great book called I'm Not Suffering from Insanity: I'm Enjoying Every Minute of It! by Karen Scalf Linamen (Author), and it was great. The Author has so many good books.

Ok for all those who don't know I have a confession. I am bi-polar and have been dealing with my mood swings for about 4 plus years now. So I intend to write about those experiences as well. It's time to break the silence.

Had to go to Duke last week to deal with a movement disorder. I have RLS (restless leg syndrome) and according to the neurologist a pretty sever case. So I just tried a new med called Requip. Well Guess what? Can't take it. It causes my mood to become unstable. NOT GOOD. So back to the drawing board I guess. :) Things will work out I am sure. I did get an appt with the pain clinic though so that's a good thing.

Rebecca and Matthew are enjoying a little independence and riding the bus to school. :( They love it and well me....still trying to enjoy the fact that they enjoy it. Rebecca had the privilege of being the crucifer and singing at my cousin's memorial service. She felt incredible humble and felt special to be part of Patty's service. Patty's life and death was a testament to her Faith and it never wavered. Just to be part of the memorial service was so humbling to all of us.

Peter is enjoying his new job with HP, but you'll have to read his blog to find out more about that. I can't speak for him.