Monday, November 10, 2008

AHHHHHHH....where did October go...it's November Now..

View from Grandfather Mountain (November 4, 2008)

OK so it is November now and where has the time gone...I was looking for it and thinking of all the things that I could have accomplished verses all the things actually accomplished during the month..the could have wins..maybe November will be a better month.

It's looking good so far...let's see:
1 - I voted! Everyone should exercise their right to vote, regardless if it is a National Election of a Local on Vote People!

2- My family and I adopted a couple military Units. Why? Because when I was in the 1st gulf war family, friends, and total strangers took the time to send me letters and Care packages, to the tune of over 700 letters and cards in a 9 month period, and I still have most of them. I will take a picture of the 3 inch binders they are all in. Talk about counting Blessings. Even though I myself can't send over 700 I can do my part. I hope you are doing yours, I am sure you know someone who has a family member or friend who is deployed or their child is deployed. Oh and why I am on the subject, even of you don't agree with the policy, support the soldier, they are away from home and need touches of home. Talk to people, find out who they know and what you can do for them. After all the holiday season is approaching and before you by that next santa and his reindeer remember this "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends" - John 15:13. Send a letter, Send a Card, send anything that lets the Soldiers, Sailors, Marines or Airmen know they have not been forgotten.

3 - I started making all my Christmas gifts. EVERYONE has a talent given to them by God. Use that talent. Who says you have to buy the gift pre-packaged out of the store thing, something from the heart made by you means more to the recipient. What would happen if we all took the time to think of the people we love and make then something instead of buying into the commercialism that has become Christmas, Christ gave of himself, find your talents and give of yourself. Maybe you bake, paint, sew, maybe you can babysit for the neighbor who needs a hand, maybe their is someone who is hurt and can't clean their house, offer your services. All these are gifts from the heart. Maybe you sing, make them a tape or CD of your favorite uplifting songs, The list goes on.

4- Thanksgiving is coming - I have written my note to my friends in Service, now I am starting my Thanksgiving letters to family and friends at home and around the world. I must say, I have blessings in family and friends, and just knowing them makes my life brighter.

SO during November, I want to accomplish more than I did in October...I want to look back over this month and Know I did everything I could to Share my Blessings and Thank God!

I hope you all are doing well - and know a newsletter is on the way...I hope you are all smiling, But I guess it can be used as kindling too....

God Bless!
Just me, Amber

ps I did manage to take the Kids to Grandfather Mountain in NC...it was beautiful WOW! What a wonderful paintbrush the good Lord has...Having see the Beauty of the Alps, nothinh compares to the Haze of the Blue Ridge and the Smokies....I am still in Awe everytime I stand on those mountains and survey all the wonder that is in my own back yard....See counting blessing...Check out our Carolina Blue Skies.....

Thursday, October 2, 2008

October - Finally!

Hey, it's October! I love October - I love Fall - and my birthday should be a national Holiday! :)

It is finally cool, Sweatshirts and Sweaters!

What have I been up too, hmmmm, just learning new things to do, and new things about me, and it's all really cool.

That's all I really have say at the moment! Enjoy the day!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Wow! I can't believe it has been since May!

I guess I have been devastated since Murphy went "upstate". I don't think he has recovered yet. The vet said it was separation anxiety and they had doggy anti-depressants they could give him. I just laughed. Too funny. I think we pay more per year for the dog than we do the kids. Murphy is allergic to grass, a dog who can't walk on grass, he has to take the preventative medication for Heart Worms, fleas and ticks, as well as being groomed every 6 weeks, oh and then there is the Rabies Vaccination (that is every 3 years), oh and he has bone spurs on his back, and some times he throws out his back, so he has two medications for that. Not to mention he gets swimmers ear easily, so when he gets a bath at home we have to but cotton balls in his ears. (did I mention he hates the cotton balls). I told Pete that next time we get a dog it is a mutt, but I wouldn't trade Murphy for anything. Plus the kids love him too.

Well my 20th High School reunion came and went. After seeing the pictures and meeting with some friends from high school who live in the Raleigh area, I wish I had rearranged my schedule and went. I hope we have a 25th.

I am not sure where to start since it has been soooooo long since I posted last, so I will just start from today.:P As Winnie-the-Pooh said, "tut tut it looks like rain" well the sky looks as though it will open up a poor buckets as any moment. However, there is a breeze that feels cool, and the smell of rain hangs heavy on the breeze. I wish my computer was charged so I could write this outside. I love watching it rain. Growing up my house had a very deep porch and you could sit on the porch and watch the rain coming over the mountains, you could hear the Thunder and watch the Lightning. It was a time when we all would sit on the porch and just be together.

I can't wait til Friday, Pete will be home. :) I can't say enough wonderful things about him. So I will leave it at that.

I have been doing my best to stay busy, the kids of course help with that. I have been dusting, mopping, vacuuming, scrubbing bathrooms, and of course all the laundry. Not to mention all the other stuff, making breakfasts and lunches and the a full supper. Matthew likes taking his lunch to school, Rebecca would rather eat a school...I wish they could agree on something. Rebecca just turned 13, and Matthew is 11. I am just beginning to enjoy the "joys" of having a teenager at home. I called my mom and asked, "did I act they way? did I do stuff like that?" mom mom just laughed and said one word, "payback"...I realized it was a lost battle to discuss it with my mom..so I just laughed.

I am smiling as I write this, I really do have great kids, a wonderful husband, and a weird but cute dog.:)

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Murphy goes to DOGGIE JAIL...

So on or about 14 May, Murphy, our dog, bit a teenager here in our neighborhood. Luckily the boy is fine (it was only a nick). The next day Wake county Animal Control shows up. They said he had to stay in quarantine for 10 days. No walks, no toys, no touching him, for 10 days. Poor dog had to do hard time. SO tomorrow we go and get him out. What's his bail? $80.00 providing he hasn't gotten sick or bit anyone else. If that happens, well I am not thinking about that.
I will have to let you know how it goes. I can tell you this the house is really lonely during the day with him. So I will let you all know what the terms of his parole are. More later.....:)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

It's been a while.....

Well since my last post, my cousin Cyndi had surgery and is doing great now, my Uncle Buster was diagnosed with Lung Cancer and passed away. My heart is still aching. I just found out that my friend Christine, just lost her dad in a car accident. When I got the news, I had to call my dad just to tell him that I loved him. We really aren't guaranteed our tomorrows.

I was at church this morning and the Gospel reading was about how Jesus is the vine and we are the branches, I thought, what kind of branch am I, what kind of fruit am I bearing, or do I need pruning. Hmmm, I decided that my life needed some pruning, and just as that thought entered my heart, the tears entered my eyes....I think God has a way of bringing to our minds those things that need pruning. So I did a little pruning today, or I should say God did a little gardening..:)

I made a list of my mom's side of the family and the information that I was missing, I realized that I am missing some of the branches...SO I sent the list to my mom and asked her to help shape the tree back up.

Peter moved my desk and Printers to our bedroom, I am comfortable here, in front of the windows and writing, working on my newsletters, and just family paperwork. I just looked up and saw some of the neighborhood kids walking up the street...which means Rebecca will be walking through the door any minute.... Peter is sooooo sweet, I know it was not an easy task and those printers are heavier than my desk... Thank you sweetie, I appreciate it!

Matthew's Birthday was Monday, so we celebrated on Sunday and Monday. We took him out to eat on Sunday after Church, but it was raining and cool on the coast, so we decided to reschedule the trip to the USS North Carolina, and we went Bowling....and we had a blast....then Monday was complete with Cake, and another restaurant for Matthew.....He got a Skateboard and new helmet and was even practicing in the rain...:) I think he liked it...:)

Anyway, I think that's all for now.....Have a great day!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Guess who's coming to dinner? A CAT!

Well I have finally gotten myself back.....
My to do list today has gotten awful long though.
All the laundry, the kitchen, dusting and vacuuming....UGH
Usually Monday is wash day, Tuesday is for the kitchen and Bathrooms, and Wednesday is Vacuum and dusting, Thursday is errands, and Friday is touch up day.
But I seem to have gotten off my schedule. And for me a schedule is VERY important. Once I am out of a routine, everything gets turned upside down. I have misplaced my daytimer as well. I am sure I will find it once I get the house back in order. (ok me back in order). Thank goodness I am blessed with an understanding husband. The kids just think it's cool not to have a strict routine for a few days. But they are understanding as well.

I have 2 seminars starting on Sunday. They are online classes through the University of Dayton, one is on prayer, the other is on an overview of what it means to be a catechist. These are 3 week seminars.

Also our church has Mass at 9am daily which is perfect for me, Matthew gets on the bus at 8:45 and the church is less than 5 minuted away unless I get stopped at the red light, in which case it will take me 6 minutes to get there. I think I like starting my day off with Mass.

Well my day really begins at 5:30am when the alarm goes off. Rebecca gets on the bus at 6:30am. Then Matthew gets up between 7 and 7:30am and gets on the bus at 8:45am so I guess my day begins a little before 9am but it's still nice to go to church in the Mornings.

Anyway, So I guess I better get back to my house.

I am picking up my cousins cat at 5:30 this afternoon, I tried telling Murphy and cat was coming to stay with us for a while, I even showed him a picture, I don't think he understands. I guess he will at diner time. I'll keep you posted.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

The Early Bird...sees the sunrise...(I don't like worms)

Well I got up early, showered and got the laundry started. See today is a better day. The Rebecca is already at school and Matthew and his friends just headed out the door for the bus. In about 15 min or so I will be headed to Mass, then an appt. with the Curves folks, ( I was looking for a woman's only place to exercise) Then the Post Office as our MA Tags have to go back to MA. Then it is back home for a few. The I have an appt. in North Raleigh, the I am dropping off a disk of pictures back to Ron's house. Ron is teaching Matthew the way to take pictures. Matthew took over 500+ pictures of a Soap Box Derby, well Matt went through the pictures and he decided that only 39 out of 500+ were worth printing. I think he is learning and loving every minute of it. I hope Ron is enjoying it too.

I made a ham this weekend and tonight we are having back Mac and Cheese, (homemade), and tomorrow I am using what is left for Split Pea Soup, even though I think Peter and I are the only ones who enjoy them.

I hope you all are having a wonderful day. God Bless you all!
More later.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Tired but one foot in front of the other......

Today is Wednesday and it was a long weekend. The kids were out of school on Monday and Tuesday. Sunday was the 2nd memorial service for my cousin Patty, and it was held at the Chapel Hill Bible Church. What an honor it was to take part in her service.

My Aunt and Cousins came in and we had a great time...I was so happy that my Aunt Kay got to come, I hope my cousin Jo and her daughter understand, I enjoyed their company too, but my Aunt is so special. Well the whole family is for that matter.

I awarded the 1st Sonflower AwardⒸ Amber Graner 2008, I'll write more about that on the website a bit later.

Today I have so much to do. But I am a bit down today. For some reason I just can't seem to be really excited or in a great mood. I am just a bit down. Maybe I am just tired. Like I said before I struggle with the affects of bipolar disorder and today one of the days I am taking it a moment at a time a getting things done, when I really would rather stay in bed and sleep.

Well I must be going I'll write more later I need to run into Cary and take my hubby some cables, and we are going to have lunch together. :) I'm excited about that.

Today is a great day, God made it! And Faith makes it wonderful....

God Bless you all! More later.

Friday, February 15, 2008

no bird seed yet...

Let's see I got most of my to do list done. Except the Bird seed and my laundry is finishing now.
I defrosted fish but I guess I left it out too long and well, let's just say it made it outside in a hurry, so now we are having meatless Pasta.

I had to get a new vacuum today the other one was blowing out more stuff than it was taking in, and I wondered why my furniture was dusty after I just dusted. hmmmm

Well that's about all for today. More later if I think of anything to babble about.

God Bless!
Amber

Don't whistle while you work...Pray:)

Today my to do list is overwhelming, well it could be if I let it. But I am not. I am going to things one at a time and get through them the same way. Prayer! I am so excited that some of my family will be visiting from Western NC this weekend. Even though I am only 4 hours away, it seems like forever some days.

Well I can't write for long as there is: (Readers Digest Condensed version of the list)

Kitchen
Bathrooms (to be cleaned)
Bedrooms to make ready for the guests
carpet to Vacuum and Steam Clean
Grocery shopping to do
And my newsletter to print and mail.
Oh yes, and bills to pay.
Get more bid seed : )
Fill up feeder :)

So it's a typical day in the world of a stay home mom. I wasn't feeling really well last night I ate something fried and as much a my taste buds enjoy it , my stomach does not. So I got up a little late and didnt have a chance to make it to Church this morning. I am enjoying going to the 9am Masses because the group is smaller and it is nice going and saying "Hi" to Jesus in the morning before my day really begins.

I just looked out the window and noticed that my bird feeder is empty. I must add get more bird seed to list and fill up the feeder. (see there is always something)

Anyway have a great day, and know I am thinking about you all.
God Bless!
Amber

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Early in the Morning I will seek Thee

I find myself up early, and I am reminded of a picture my mom has that has a little country church dimly light in the early morning hours with a horse and buggy out front, with a little light glowing through the window of the church, and the caption states "Early in the morning I will seek Thee"

I was thinking do I truly seek Him, in these early morning hours or is it more like a "Hi" and "Can you bring me a good day today." I don't think that is the type of seeking the picture was talking about. I figure since it has been laid on my heart to do more seeking in these morning hours that I would attended Mass daily, since I really don't have a excuse as to why I can't go to church each morning and start the day off a little better than before. We only live 5 minuted from our Church and the Mass is at 9:00am, Matthew gets on the bus at 8:45am so there is no reason not to pop on over and really say "Hi" and "Thank you " to Christ, especially in this Lenten Season.

I need to take Rebecca to school this morning as it is raining and I am sure that it will still be raining at 8:30am so, Matthew will get a ride to school as well.

Rebecca made the honor roll at her new school and Matthew got an A on his pirate project.
We are Blessed!

God Bless you all today! Find your quiet moments and see Him.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

1st Sunday of Lent!

Well it's Sunday and we are getting ready to head to church. Today is a good day. I have energy and I am excited about going to Mass this morning.

I just told Matthew to take the dog out for a walk, and it lasted all of 30 seconds, so I had to send in out again. He spent the night with one of his friends, and he stayed up way to late. SO we are trying to make sure he will stay awake.

Rebecca is up and ready so that is a good thing.

I am not sure what we will be doing after Mass, but I am sure I will write about it.

Have a Blessed Day!

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Down today up tomorrrow....

It's Saturday! I am so tired today. That's kinda the way it is when you're Bipolar. I was so up on Wednesday and Thursday, now here is Saturday and I am down. I think the there are two meds that I am taking that are a little strong. The Requip and the Remeron are making me very tired. I am sure it will get figured out. Just have to work through it.

On a good note I am almost completely caffeine free. Less that 1/2 can a day. I am so glad about that.

Well it is Lent and I have been know to watch those court shows during the day, so I am giving up watching TV during the day and pray more , and as a family we are going to make Rosaries and prayer bracelets. I am not sure what Peter and the kids are giving up for Lent but I suspect the kids it will be candy and sweets.

Anyway I don't feel like writing much today. I wanted to go to Mass at 6pm but I've mised that window so we will just go on Sunday.

I had a great conversation with my friends Karin yesterday. I miss my friends, from VA and MA. I am trying to make more here and become involved in the community. It is a little more difficult here though. Why? I am not sure.

My cousin had to go and have some tests run and I got to go along, I felt very privileged to be included. You know there are blessings everywhere, and I am Blessed.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Ash Wednesday

I know I am late posting this....but please be patient as I am trying during Lent especially to be diligent for my sacrifices and my prayers. Pray I do.:)

On Wednesday I had to fly to back to Massachusetts to have some orthodontic work done (why there you ask because I only have two more adjustments and they come off, it wasn't worth trying to find a new orthodontist here until I finished there, and it's cheaper this way believe it or not.)

So we leave the house around 5am to get to the airport at 6am for my 8am flight. (security at RDU is either really fast or really slow no middle ground, well that's been my experience anyway.)
I was concerned that I would miss every Mass where the Ashes were being given out at. Why do I worry God knows what he is doing. So I finally get to Manchester, NH at 10:30am (had to stop and change plans in Philadelphia.) Made it to my appointment at 11:30, they did what they had to do and I was at my Old Parish, St. Patrick's in Lowell, by 12:10pm, (ok I was 10 minutes late but I got there, WHEW!) It was so good to get there receive my ashes and to receive communion too.

I was able to visit and have lunch with the Priests from the church, visit my friends Bro. Val, and Maria the secretary there. All of whom I dearly miss. I had the best visit and felt renewed by the blessing of friends, especially the greatest of friends Christ! What a blessed day it was.

I finally drove back to the airport early as they were facing storms heading that what and all the flights from the Midwest had been cancelled. I got to the airport and turned in the rental car and went to the gates early. I found and earlier flight back to Philadelphia and I waited and waited and I over heard the crew talking that 4 people were still missing and I just asked "I'm heading that way on the next flight can I have one of those seats" The crewman asked 'Do you have any checked bags?" "Nope, just me and this bag (my purse), I replied. The lady that was there said, "Come on then and take the 1st open seat you find." I did and it was at the very back of the plane right next to the bathrooms, I was happy. The flight attendant said, "Is it Ash Wednesday already?" and with a smile I said yes. Again I was happy, the Ashes were a outward symbol of my belief in God. So everyone who say them said " you made it to Church" I smiled without saying a word I was witnessing to a multitude of people my Christian Faith.

I made it to Philadelphia and there was an earlier flight there as well. I waited till the attendant had closed the door and was making the final manifest check and I asked is there one seat left ad if so can I get it? She smiled and said as she opened the door "it's yours" and the man who knew I was waiting to see if I could get on that flight said "see it pays to go to church" I smiled again, and again felt blessed.

Now for those of you who don't know what Ash Wednesday is let me give you the short version. It is the start of Lent. (Just click on Ash Wednesday or Lent underlined and blue and it will take you better articles than what I can write). I enjoy Lent, it is time for penance, for reflection, for fasting, and sacrificing, in preparing for Easter. Please read the articles to find out more.

Also on Wednesday, Matthew had to finish his project on Calico Jack, a pirate, Peter announced to me as I called him from the airport to let him know I was taking an earlier flight, "you are never leaving to go any where when there are projects that the kids have to do!" I don't think he enjoys all the projects as much as I do, but they got it done. And Matthew was really proud of himself as he did it all with very little help from us.

I got home around 11:30pm or so and was exhausted, blessed but tired. I love my family and I am so glad that I have them. Have you hugged your family today?

Oh I think I mentioned that I just read and a book I not living with Insanity, I am enjoying every minute of it! Well in the book it has a 100 smile challenge, I am going to try to bring out 100 smile. I think it will be fun to at least try. I'll keep a journal to see how many happen between now and lent.

Gotta run more later....
Have a Blessed Day!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Murphy needs a Pet....and I found the SPCA today

Ok so I did a million loads of laundry today, did a couple loads of dishes (where do they all come from?) Getting up at 5:30am makes for a long day.

I did find out where the SPCA for Wake county was. I looked at all the cats. They were great! I wonder what Murphy would think of a cat. Considering that I am allergic to cats I didn't act too impulsively. I decided to bring back the family and see what they think about the idea. I didn't even make it the dog section. I think Murphy is probably happy about that too. He needs a sibling though. We need another animal. I think we do anyway and you can't walk a fish.

I am waiting for the registration/copyright to come back on a work I just submitted. I am so excited and can't wait to get the certificate of registration.

Peter and I went to lunch today. Nothing fancy just Fridays..I was a nice lunch but the time spent with just Peter and was the best. I enjoy just hanging out with him.

Rebecca and Matthew are making friends in the neighborhood. All within walking distance. So it is fun to walk around the neighborhood. Murphy likes the walk too unless you walk him farther than he wants to walk then he just sits down and expects you to carry him home.
Matthew is working on a class project about a Pirate: Calico Jack

So, as far as the Bipolar goes, I have to keep lists and stay on top of things. Blogging helps. Working on the website helps as well. I get frustrated easy at the moment, and I am not sleeping well. But I am sure that the meds will help get me back on track. I also have RLS and that is flaring up hard. I think that's why I am not sleeping well. My doctor gave me a website to find a support group for the RLS so that's my next step in this medical adventure.

More later....

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Bipolar....not what you see on the news

OK so here I am watching the news and what comes on Britney Spears, in the hospital again, family members state she is bipolar. UGH! I hate this. Anytime you mention the term Bipolar what comes to mind, over the top pop stars, murderers who won't get divorced so they "get rid of" their spouses. Why don't you here about the people who are successful. This link gives you some idea Famous People with bipolar disorder.

Just because someone suffers from this disorder DOES NOT mean you can't live a very successful life. Many people with this disorder are highly motivated and driven people. Why don't they (the media) report the successes, no they have to report on the extreme because as a society that's what makes everyone stop and pay attention. The more outrageous, dramatic, traumatic, or just ridicules that's what our society wants to hear.

So I am ranting..but the point is valid, aren't their more important issues in this world at the moment. Now having said that, it does not mean that I do not sympathize with the Britney or any other person suffering with any form of mental illness. I just pray she will get the help she needs (and the media will just leave her alone to recover and get her life together.)

It's February Tomorrow...can you believe that..

Well so many things have happened since my last posting. Where do I start?

Well we found a house in Fuquay-Varina, NC, my mom broke her ankle and had surgery, my grandma went into a nursing home, my cousin passed away, Peter hit a deer and a rock from and overpass shattered my sunroof on my car, but I know everything happens for a reason. I tell the kids all the time "life's not fair, but God knows best."
So that's the condensed version. WHEW!

I am taking online classes through University of Dayton, and I love it! Online classes are the best. What am I going to school for? Theology. Why didn't I do this sooner. I thought business was the way to go, then I thought of Social Work, then I went back to my Faith. If you are passionate about something that is what you should do. All those other things, I was forcing a square peg in a round hole. School is fun now.

I got Murphy a stuffed Gorilla that screams. Why?, you ask. Well I thought it would be a great idea for him to have a new play toy. It was either that or a CAT. He loves the toy and he scared me to death with it. I was taking a nap and he went and picked it up and the thing started screaming. I almost had a heart attack. (now if my mom is reading this, she is laughing and saying "payback") Now why would my mom say that? hmmm here's the story.

When I was 5 years old or so, my cousin Scotty gave me a stuffed Gorilla. I loved it. Carried it around with me everywhere. Well I would also hide it in the cabinets, the drawers, closets, any place that was a little dark when you reached into them. My mom and my grandma would reach in these places and feel something furry. It would scare them to death. They screamed so many times. And did I remember these things when I bought the toy for Murphy...NO! so I guess payback is just fair.

I just read this great book called I'm Not Suffering from Insanity: I'm Enjoying Every Minute of It! by Karen Scalf Linamen (Author), and it was great. The Author has so many good books.

Ok for all those who don't know I have a confession. I am bi-polar and have been dealing with my mood swings for about 4 plus years now. So I intend to write about those experiences as well. It's time to break the silence.

Had to go to Duke last week to deal with a movement disorder. I have RLS (restless leg syndrome) and according to the neurologist a pretty sever case. So I just tried a new med called Requip. Well Guess what? Can't take it. It causes my mood to become unstable. NOT GOOD. So back to the drawing board I guess. :) Things will work out I am sure. I did get an appt with the pain clinic though so that's a good thing.

Rebecca and Matthew are enjoying a little independence and riding the bus to school. :( They love it and well me....still trying to enjoy the fact that they enjoy it. Rebecca had the privilege of being the crucifer and singing at my cousin's memorial service. She felt incredible humble and felt special to be part of Patty's service. Patty's life and death was a testament to her Faith and it never wavered. Just to be part of the memorial service was so humbling to all of us.

Peter is enjoying his new job with HP, but you'll have to read his blog to find out more about that. I can't speak for him.